A reddish fire
Wood everywhere
Family chairs
Two jerks with drinks
They smirk I shrink
Crowds swallow me
Loud and chatty
I cross the floor
But I don’t walk
Unseen unheard
A tiny bird
I stand in fear
I know it here
Somehow I wish
Someone knew me
He stands in black
Wearing a cap
As if hiding
From the ceiling
He’s staring down
Eyes on the ground
His corner gaze
Scanning the place
A heavy mouth
Drags his face south
Bitten in shame
Bitter with pain
And our eyes lock
But he won’t stop
The intense play
He’s acting there
He’s no stranger
But I for sure
Am no longer
In his theatre
Friends invite me
To take a seat
They smile they hug
And I feel loved
But I don’t stay
Strolling astray
On a wide road
As he follows
Or is it me
Following him
At equal pace
Aligned and same?
Are we talking
Are we trying
I don’t hear you
Can you hear me?
I wish my ex would stop popping up in my dreams like an asshole.
Addictions
There’re odd places in this world
That I go to when I’m in pain
Dreadful places of comfort
That I poorly love to hate
What the truth tastes like
The first time I’ve been told the truth
It had a metallic feeling
A mixed feeling, more like an alloy
It tasted like blood, red iron
And yet it was all blue and luminous and fierce.
Balancing doubt
Doubt if any
Truth will come to me
Doubt it shall be
To bend my head down
to the Earth
The game of life
Sometimes I play games
Sometimes they play me
Sometimes I win games
Sometimes they lose me
I love you
The sun has in space
Some spot in the sun
And inside it’s insanely
Drunk
Don’t be nice
Don’t’ be nice to me.
I don’t want you to be nice.
I want you to shine, to cry, and pour out your light into the world.